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a membership which I still renew to this day. I kept adding to my collection and going out as often as possible... going out at nights to picture.shows, concerts, or lectures at the university. I now have a complete wardrobe of several dresses hats, coats, shoes, and a high quality street wig. I now go anywhere as a woman day or night.

I remember one time I had to make a trip to New York on business for the company. I went as a wquan. Of the five days I was there I had to make four meetings for my company. It was with considerable relief that I got back to my hotel and into my feminine clothes. Another time I went to Chicago as a woman. I started by making reservations at the best hotel in town and traveling by pullman. I went to my room and changed into my feminine clothes, and packed two bags of nothing but woman's clothes and left. I spent the entire week as a woman. Since then I have gone to New York in the same manner. Only my method of transportation changed from train to plane as the desire suited me.

Today I can go anywhere as a woman without fear of de- tection. I have been accepted as a woman by women in various intimate situations and this has greatly helped my self con- fidance. For example I once went into a large department store and up to the lingerie department. I wear an all-in- one foundation and needed a new one. I described the garment to the saleslady but my description was not too good. She then asked me if I had the garment on and I said yes. "Софе with me" she said and led the way into the fitting rooms There were other women in other rooms all around me. In the dressing room she said, "Pull up your dress and let me see the garment". I did and she helped. She ran her finger around the bottom of the manufacturers name tag. as she gave me my change

foundation in an effort to find the She found it, sold me a new one, and said, "Please come back soon honey

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At various times I have tried to quit. I would destroy all the fininine clothes I had. For a while I could forget about it and shut it out of my mind and not be bothered by it Then as suddenly as it disappeared it returned more powerful than before. The desire must be satisfied. I once want on